A Hope Deferred...

Proverbs 13:12 (NIV)
"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life."

Sorry for the silence lately. I have hit a rut. This has been a discouraging week for me. It started when I found out I was denied for unemployment, though my husband had been budgeting without that money it really brought me down. I think it was so discouraging because it made me feel like I was no longer contributing to our household. I have also only had one phone interview for a job i probably wouldn't even like & was out of my field. No other call backs or offers. I frankly began to feel like a total loser!

I have found myself watching more TV, spending less time with God, getting dressed later & later, slacking on getting stuff done around the house, not caring as much about what I eat & the poor workout room must have abandonment issues! In a word, my heart is sick!

Then I had a revelation as I was looking at the pseudo portfolio of my desktop publishing work. Instead of abandoning my dream because it seems unlikely or difficult I should expand it! I love planning events & I love creating publications. I have recently been into websites & social media. In other words, Marketing! Most event planners are in the marketing department, so if I expand my search to all marketing, that increases my chances of getting a job. So with my lack of solid experience or specific education I thought I should go for my MBA with an emphasis is Marketing!

I was really excited about the prospect until reality crushed it like a bug. My glimmer of hope was deferred again as I realized we cannot afford for me to go back to school & I am not taking out any more student loans. I have too many as it is! The only viable option is to get a job at the university or college & let them pay for it!

Therefore, my plan is to apply for any marketing jobs and any university or college jobs. It will be a means to an end and I can do that!

This is the famous Burr Oak & is also the place Steven proposed!